Date: 2009-11-25 20:41 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

I hate my new manager, still don't know what I am doing in my job, want to kill my collegues...


In short, normal service has resumed

Ki

Date: 2009-11-18 18:24 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

I have gastero enteritis...

The doctors have diagnosed me with a possible Salmonella Poisoning

I have a sick note for work which the doctor told me would last untill my tests were confirmed but reads...

Krysh thinks it says one week, so who knows

Work have told me I cant even pop in to hand it in as I am to be quarantined.

Woohoo

Date: 2009-11-16 10:55 Subject: Feeling better? Security: Public

Today, my symptoms of illness were confirmed as Swine 'flu

They are not however, Swine flu says the doctor

I have gastero-enteritis and a chest infection with exhaustion...

Woohoo...

Three at once, I have equaled my personal best. If I can get them to diagnose depression I beat the 2003 illness bout.

Go me

Ki

Date: 2009-11-15 21:24 Subject: Bring in the JCB... Security: Public Mood: depressed

I have this wonderful ability to make people laugh

Couple with this an ability to get people to open up and talk with me, I have often found myself at the mercy of tearful, upset or otherwise emotional friends, in need of a shoulder to cry on and a pick me up.

Of course this can backfire, as I do not know when to put down the shovel and step away from the hole...

Today, I may have just sunk the biggest hole of my life straight into a close friendship, possible damaging it critically.

Can I get off this train wreck now please?

Ki

PS, Happy Birthday to mind_expander

Date: 2009-11-13 09:11 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

Just a quickie to say happy brithday to out0fcontrol

Date: 2009-11-12 23:46 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

So today I had a overwhelming desire to kill everyone...

I supect I can cure this by Quiting work and going to work for a biological research company.

You know, the kind that work with lethal viruses with no cures, that if one tiny mistake is made everybody dies...

Ki

Date: 2009-11-11 17:59 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

Ah, the fun of impending birthday

As all of you should know, I dislike my Birthday and the impending doom it brings.

I suspect this could explain the repeated desire to sink into an emo mood that is again upon me.

I will find some way to get out of this spiral.

Or kill someone, either way...

Date: 2009-11-10 21:54 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

Its getting harder and harder not to just rant or go emo in my life. So listing the good stuff to make me smile

I am married to the most amazing womean in the world

Okay thats as far as I need to go... done, Now I'm smiling again

Date: 2009-11-10 07:56 Subject: unlike yesterdays failed attempts at posting, almost 90% emo free Security: Public

So, an update

The unicorn Winter parli was Average.

The "advertised" plot seemed to dissapear to be swollowed by a plotline I hated previously (and still feel is responsible for the death of my first character) so did not have fun. As per usual I will submit constructive feedback when I can clear my head enough (and yes even after 18 hours still unable to do that)

Yesterday I may have let someone get a deeper insight into my dark and twisted psyche.

Oops.

On a side note, there is an advert on the page while I type this for AVG anti-Virus free edition. The last time I got AVG (from the website) it downloaded a virus for me.
So when I see this ad, I keep reading AVG Virus free editon...

Ki

Date: 2009-11-03 21:27 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

I have a new watch (hurray)

It has a few strange functions...

Date: 2009-10-22 22:45 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

Tomorrow out0fcontrol takes her theory test...

With luck we shall soon have a second driver in the house and I can sleep on long journies...

Heres hoping

Date: 2009-10-21 22:07 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

so after yesterday, today I get a letter, addressed to me, from the financial help team at the bank with whom I have a mortgage, asking me to contact them as I am in financial difficulty...

Do people know something I dont?

Date: 2009-10-20 20:26 Subject: debt counsellors Security: Public

I work with a Debt counselling company, DMS

Imaging my suprise when I come home to find a letter from a DMS agent stating he needs to talk to me about my mortgage before my lender takes me to court for repossession

I have not missed a payment.

Then out0fcontrol noticed that it is actually addressed to a house at the other end of the crescent.

These guys are trained to help with finances, but have a difficulty counting above double digits (where my address is) to one somewhat higher

These guys are idiots...

And they should help you with your mortgages...

Ki

Date: 2009-10-17 14:08 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

sorry, missed a day...

Car repairs took money, and longer than expected so last night was straigt to pub.

And musochic they did a good job, at a discount as the guy did comment I had been in one too many time this year... he also ponted out how I could get some future repairs cheeper... I would use friends but the conveniance of repairs is what I pay for.

Its kinda like fast food. I pull up repair while I wait drive off... I will pay for that.

But thanks

Ann Summers Party tonight so I am out of the house... Joy (camcorder will be hidden ;-) oh yes)

Ki

Date: 2009-10-15 22:43 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

so tommorrow my car goes in for its 6 monthly "somethings gone wrong"

This six months it is now making a wonderful "loud" noise at speeds above 40, which die down when cornering...

I suspect something with my suspension.

The garage asked if it was a noise related to my fuel...

My knowledge of cars is, Key, ignition, accelerater pedal, moving

Brake to slowdown, gears as appropriate

I WANT MY CAR TO GO!!!

Ki

Date: 2009-10-14 19:06 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

Standing on the Wii fit board is very disconcerting as it keeps saying "ow"

but its all worth it for the comment of "have a bath before bed is very relaxing... Obviously I dont have baths or I would sleep for a long time"

I find it worringly cute...

Date: 2009-10-13 20:41 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

Addendum to previous posts

It would appear even stopping being emo did not stop the potential blow out.

Much to the fear of the woman in ASDA I blew up at.

She was giving me a disguted look over my minor disagreement with Krysh over food. So I yelled at her. I told her that sneering at people having a problem in public is rude, and then yelled at her some more...

She left...

I continued shopping without any problems

It would appear I no longer have to be polite to people who annoy me

Ki

Date: 2009-10-13 19:02 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

This is a public service announcement

The emo imposter that has taken over my life the past few days was taken outside and shot this morning.

Normal services resume.

Thankyou

Ki (the evil one from our universe... the goatee proves it)

Date: 2009-10-12 20:56 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

So today...

Yes.

I appear to have lost all keen for everything. I am suffering full blown mood swings from bouncy happy to kill you all emo in seconds..

Finally, I am begining to suspect I have a problem I cannot just cope with by myself. Yes out0fcontrol is there for me, but living with me for the past 10+ years I don't think its fair to dump anymore on her, and i cannot talk to my close friends, and don't "trust" more distant ones with my personal feelings.

It comes down to years of being bullied and so keeping my feelings, thoughts and secrets so far buried they would never come out. Breaking the habit of 20 years is hard... and unlike smoking the NHS dont just give you easy to get drugs/counselling for it. Well not without talking to someone first and thats just not going to happen

Its funny how things go. This post was supposed to be a rant about BT...ah well I'm gonna get off my soap box now. We have ducktales to watch...

*giggles*

Ki

Date: 2009-10-11 19:56 Subject: and there was squeeing Security: Public

So, yesterday went weird

Me and out0fcontrol went shopping with thedarkfae and q_araignee.

After purchasing a Wii, and watching a foreshadowing of an argument, Anthony went into H Samuel's. With a little help from yours truly he went and and bought jewelry for Lauren.

She bounced and squeed and smiled and giggled. Lots

The necklace she got was a beautiful piece of silver with two amethyst heart shaped stones.

Then around eight, at our house, in our spare bedroom, he got down on one knee and offered her the other peice of jewelry. A stunning silver/amethyst ring.

She accepted and practically vibrated ever since.

So congratulations to the pair of you.

Ki